pixelated nation

life version 1.1 beta version

2008-09-28T10:59:00.004+08:00

whose says its easy to be married? it takes effort... it takes hardwork, it is an art by itself.

when 2 become one,(or multiples become one...{insert parents' and in law's name here})

it is complicated, but its gona be interesting...

its heartwretching at times, but i am sure you will feel life like never before... so real, so tangible

the politics at work is as real as those at home...

in fact sometimes they can be as real as those in the drama serials.

i had seen some.

i have been working more hours than i sleep

i have been sandwiched in between bosses...

i am seeking a remedy in balance of life

is work that important? or am i just taking things too hard?

do we make today worse so tomorrow seems better?

am i going to be a better man?

am i going to give my wife a better life?

these things will come to pass...

wat is my five years plan?

couples of awards under my belt?

a big fat paycheque?

i dont know

but for sure i am gona be a dad of 5 year old (and another of 3 maybe).

life version 1.0

2008-09-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

In my 31 years, there are times you gather

for 18 year old birthday, you gather.

for graduation day, you gather

for reunion dinner before chinese new year, you gather

for some old folks funeral, you gather....

There are times you are left alone...

the days when you have to brace yourself for national service...

the days you just break off with your girlfriend(boyfriend)

for some days when you just want to be left alone...

for now i am alone...

its tough to be alone when you been living with someone for the pass two years

its tough and awkward....

to come home, and be greeted by a pair of ur slip house slippers

its weird when you are clueless what to do during the weekend.

每一天的美

2008-07-28T00:23:00.002+08:00

我还记得几周前他跟我买了tshirt.

我还记得五一的时候我们一起去了周杰伦的演唱会。

不是跟他很熟，跟他老婆比较好，因为我和她做同样的客户。

他在上星期日突然心脏病。。。走了。

人生苦短。一周过了。

terence,你一路走好。

chinlish

2008-07-09T12:09:00.004+08:00

i have to leave early for work so i asked my art director amy to do up a simple job and email me later to have a quick look. Actually i can read chinese text okie and dont expect her to write me in english to communicate... but this is what i received...

"我已极发到你邮箱了“

i can really image her whole body stucked inside my mailbox literally.

周二

2008-07-08T04:55:00.003+08:00

4点早上已经很亮了。

被家中传来的一股臭味给惊醒。

是没清理的食物垃圾吗？

今天是七月八号。。。一个重要的日子

我和琳娜的纪念日。。。

在2000年的七月八号，我握了她的手。。。

八年了！

爬跺5年，结婚要三年了。。。

你还过的好吧？

草你妈的堵！！！

2008-07-07T11:42:00.002+08:00

堵车。。。

我在很无奈的出租车等了又等。。。

夏天的气候要不得人。

我还是比较喜欢冬天的。

美女穿着漂亮的丝袜，我爱

长长的皮鞋，长长的脚

夏天女生穿着背心也挺好的

不过他们就是不太爱剃腋下的毛。。。

TURNOFF...

没剃就不要穿小可爱行吗？

七月咯

2008-07-05T09:55:00.004+08:00

七月咯

不知不觉离奥运也只是30多天

在无意youtube闲逛，发现了北京乐团。hedgehog, carsick cars, sulumi, 布衣乐团。。。

特别是觉得hedgehog鼓手atom

一个小不点的女生很有意思。

http://wwwcn.myspace.cn/hedgehog

lazy sunday

2008-04-28T13:06:00.006+08:00

its was a lazy sunday... we went to GUOMAO... one train stop from our place to see CIGE exhibitions... really interesting and provocative art pieces....

funny things in china is that you are allowed to take photographs of the art pieces...

so i went trigger off happily shooting all the interesting pieces...

nothing bests this one which is a naked man....

really hair and in details....
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35793&id=572121976

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35797&id=572121976

orgasmic wedensday

2008-04-24T15:43:00.004+08:00

went to the apparel supplier in the morning and it was ORGASMIC...
its a haven for graphic designer and wanabe tshirt/apparel dreamer...

all sorts of zips and buttons... and all sorts of labels making.... and its like not expensive but everything comes in thousands...
we were pretty much ignored by the shop assistant when we ask them about pricing... think the way we dress and look jus not their target audience.... they must be thinking, another uni students looking for things to do for thier projects....

nevertheless.... its was amazing.... we are in the process of doing up our apparel...
Hurry! before the summer hit its fullest... we need to have some tshirts to sell by then....

anyway... the color is coming out... the greens and the blues....

nice....

学写歌2

2008-04-22T15:00:00.003+08:00

one night in beijing
我喝了很多二锅头
56度的自由也让我昏头
想要用钱买醉
可是素醉真的好累

56度的自由爷们能喝的牛逼
56度的昏头爷们喝醉的傻B

买单时记得要发票因为哥们说他公司可以报销
喝晕了真有点飘飘所以妞门说我们就干在今宵

56度的自由爷们能喝的牛逼
56度的昏头爷们喝醉的傻B

one night in beijing 就是那么战战兢兢
one night in beijing 没有儿声的口音

说啥说啥我有点傻傻
好勒好勒我有点想睡

学写歌1

2008-04-21T15:00:00.003+08:00

爱情是傻傻的甜蜜的事你我在过
写下的感觉有点变质是因为你不在遥远？
开了口又怎样？口罩给我呼吸更自由

门外的拖鞋是我的终点到家的感觉不在拥有。
回忆是感动之后的模糊想念是颗粒碎片的明天

少了你的日子不是谁的错
有你在我肩膀天气以不漫长

十八岁的记忆好象学自行车的感觉
永远不忘的意义

十八岁那年我爱上了谁？
你的爱是我伤的裂痕
十年以后我不是你的谁
我的未来不在有泪痕

过客的你是在想什么？
我失去了你，也拥有了你

没有你的日子没有你的日子

爱累了累了爱

周一的雨天

2008-04-21T11:24:00.004+08:00

gavin send me this....
new verb on my vocab library
redefination of crime scene, criminal offence and citizen arrest

sibei ger yen

再来一首

2008-04-20T03:58:00.002+08:00

最近很多的传艺的想法
想学写歌
想组乐团
想做服装品牌
想很多

就讓這首歌 (KTV) 張震嶽 & MC HOTDOG & 侯佩岑

侯佩岑是唱给周大侠听的吗？

六个月以后

2008-04-20T03:46:00.002+08:00

不知为什么blogspot在大陆又可以上了
六个月以后
中文大快了
去了西安三回
回了新加坡两次
体重上了不少

爱上了苏打绿的小情歌

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老　

wednesday again after 2months

2007-11-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

time flies and two months had passed...
the weather changing to winter...
here we are pulling out all the winter clothes...
beanies and gloves...
soon it will be 2008
soon there will be sunshine...
hang in there...

midweek in the middle

2007-09-05T11:18:00.000+08:00

jus another shoot in progress.

wednesday always remind me of mambo night at zouk.
wednesday is the day neither here nor there...
"wednesday" sounds like a great name for an ice cream
there many more wednesdays to come...
how is yours like?

august authum

2007-08-17T11:00:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i last wrote.
time flies.
i was back in singapore for 2 print shoot.
it was a mixed up feelings...
to be back at home but have to work.
to be around close ones again.
taking a perspective as a tourist in singapore.
everything is yet so familar but yet so far away.
Gary my old friend was clearing the the warehouse in church and manage to find these two pieces of pottery which i made them like 14 years ago. it was a sweet mermories.
it reminds me that i used to be passionate with my craft and was so young at then.
I was learning pottery with NG ENG TENG at then.

sweet sweet taste of my youth really.

《死了都要改》

2007-07-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

life of an art director in china thru
信乐团《死了都要爱》

《死了都要改》AD之歌

把每天
当成是交图来更改
一分一秒
都改到泪水掉下来
不理会
客户是看好或看快
只要你勇敢
跟我改
改~~
不用改得太快
你改得越快他的意见也就越快
改到现在
别一说改就怕受伤害
许多好图我们相信
全靠改出来
死了都要改~~
不推翻重来不痛快
做设计的
只有这样
才足够表白
死了都要改~~
不改到痛苦不痛快
宇宙毁灭图还在
把每图当成是基因来瞎改
一字一句
都改到口水喷出来
不理会
别人是看好或看坏
只要你勇敢
跟我改
改~~
不用可意去编排
凭感觉去胡编乱造就会很愉快
别一开改就怕受伤害
许多奇迹我们相信才会存在
死了都要改~~
不推翻重来不痛快
做设计的
只有这样
才足够表白
死了都要改~~
不改到痛苦不痛快
宇宙毁灭图还在
穷途末路都要改
不极度变态不痛快

back in the days...

2007-06-24T16:56:00.000+08:00

this is sentosa...
this is my sister and my mum
i am on the stroller...

apparently my nephew raidon looks like me in this photos.

讲华语

2007-06-15T12:05:00.000+08:00

你好？
服务员
买单
开发票
报销
加班
出租车
三里屯
京广中心
你看着办吧。。。

5months in china, i learnt...

2007-06-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

1 traffic lights are jus for reference.
2 yes can be no,
3 they do hang dirty laundry outside
4 to write more and read more mandarin
5 i get to go massage more than my whole life in sg
6 the loyality to buy real goods is diminished due to the shower of pirated and fake ones
7 luerzers archive also got repica
8 beer is cheaper than coke
9 i never see much birds fly in the sky anymore
10 uncertainity brace you up to another level.

blocked blocked

2007-06-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

first its was blogspot,
now its flickr....
all my pics are uploaded on flickr and linked to the blog...
now its all missing links... loads of question marks icons....
sianz....

yes, no, maybe

2007-06-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

when yes is a maybe
when maybe might be a no
when no is never a no too...

too much in between... its a discovery channel everyday here...
the ups and the downs... its a definite maybe, its a maybe definitely...
nothing is sure...
not even the 100 dollars.
not even the traffice lights.... they are more like flash light...
i hardly cross the road half way and its flicking already

its keeps you on your toes... literally...

its like a roller coaster ride...

happy 71st anniversary

2007-06-08T10:40:00.000+08:00

71 months
279 weeks
1956 days
46953 hours
2817223 minutes
169033392 seconds

but what we shared and what's in between is more than these figures can express.
happy anniversary Leng!
love you oways

parklife 2

2007-05-30T08:38:00.000+08:00

ah pek doing his things in front of HouHai Lotus Lane

Everyone need to express themself. a painting, a letter, a song or jus a little dance in his head.

This ah pek is both a poet and a old skool graphic designer.... he writes with precision... as if there is a grid system...

he is a new-media designer too... using unconventional medium to express his works...

it doesnt matter if the works dont stay... (no ink used, jus water)
but when it starts to dry, the beauty of the work comes to live.

Parklife

2007-05-29T09:52:00.000+08:00

its been a long time seen i last wrote...
we took a walk to Ritan park on a lazy sunday...

all of sorts of activities happened in this park.
Fishing, rock climbling and even Capoeira...

its quite surreal.... almost like a very very quiet silence before a big storm hit the city.

野地的花

2007-05-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

野地的花，穿著美麗的衣裳，天空的鳥兒，從來不為生活忙；
慈愛的天父，天天都看顧，祂更愛世上人，為他們預備永生的路。

一切需要，天父已經都知道，若心中煩惱，讓祂為你除掉；
慈愛的天父，天天都看顧，祂是全能的主，信靠祂的人真是有福.

本詩歌是依據馬太福音6:26-32

spider lilies 刺青

2007-04-26T15:11:00.000+08:00

看了刺青也想要一个
但我的故事是什麽？
是要爽的酷？是想要痛来麻酒现时？
是否是爱慕虚荣？还是因为哎哟？
也许是全以上吧也许都不是吧

好久没痛了。derrick你有竹子那麽美那有多好啊！！！

sunday in 798

2007-04-18T15:49:00.000+08:00

this is Theo's cafe called Mooi cafe...
he is left my office last year to do his own shit and open a cafe in 798 district...
somehow the white wash makes one feel that its not china when u are there...
the old run out walls and the chairs... all full of character....

Music Gets Your Talka Love

2007-04-12T10:14:00.000+08:00

i was at the deaf school in beijing near houhai on tuesday...
it was for a video shoot for a job.

anyway its the same old charity thingy... buy our product and get a special CD recording of artistes singing and we will donate part of the profit to the deaf charity.
with their music it will help the children to hear again... so love...
but depends how you see it.... i was jaded and think its jus another marketing stunt...
but then again, the children will benefits from it... but using them as a tools... as empathy... i wonder...

the children are adorable...

whether the weather went where?

2007-04-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

its a beautiful day

ouch thats not my kidney

2007-04-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

two months

2007-03-29T16:38:00.000+08:00

time flies.... its two months since i landed this city...
it was a quick 2months... a few hits and some misses.
less than 500days to olympic...
quite an exciting time to be part of it. ( I hope i will still be here next year)

somehow working in middle management is a tricky game.
you got to answer to you boss... and you have to make sure your kiddos do their part and answer to you.
but design sometimes its hard to delicate... how can you ask someone to write you handwriting?
its almost impossible. but i was amazed by the sheer brilliant china comrades craftmanship.

its takes time but its possible...

welcome to the world of management guan.... its a tall order....
i is learning, I is learning...

blocked blogspot...

2007-03-27T11:54:00.000+08:00

they blocked blospot... i cant read wat i posting apparently.
why are they doing that?
i dont understand.

toying on the idea of taking driving license in china.
but the traffic hor if you see hor... u will shit in your pants.

but that will be a good "activity" outside working...

a new challenge...

the weather is getting warmer... and soon there will be sandstorm...

thinking of the one week break in may.... a holiday will be nice...

20hours clocked in on the 20th of marth

2007-03-22T18:24:00.000+08:00

pictures in picture.

its the wildest things.... to work over 20hours is no kidding...
it feels like life on fastforward mode....
leng might not recognise me soon...

this is how you tell time in the past.... this is a giant lorex

2007-03-20T10:09:00.000+08:00

Drum Tower and Bell Tower...
the way of life in the past how they tell time... gong gong and ching ching... is 2:10pm?
so if its 12 midnight will be very very gongzzz...

substation to the power of 100

2007-03-19T10:34:00.000+08:00

weekend was a day trip to DaShanZhi Art District...
its used to be a industrial area where weapons and machinery parts are made.
Artists went to reside there in the 60s and its the number 5 must see tourists spot in beijing by CNN now...

a lot of weird art gallery...
its have this raw feel..
unfinished and somehow its true to its very own... non commercial for most...
there is a CD shop there that carry local experimental labels...
and a few cool cafes.

i want to open a shop there...

will be cool to have a designer boutique studio there...

times flies like lao sai...

2007-03-16T09:40:00.000+08:00

i lost track... but a solid week have passed...
some colleagues from singapore are coming up for some brainstorming gangbang.
they asked me if i needed anything from sg.
i din ask for food...
i asked for FHM and MAXISM instead...
weekend is around the corner.... WEEEEEEEEE!

which place? "the place"

2007-03-15T09:33:00.001+08:00

this new shopping mall is called "The Place"
upbeat swanky mall with great range of food and international brand and a decent english bookstore...
wats most interesting is that is have an outdoor roof projection ceiling which is about a football field i reckon
at night motion visual of all sort lit up the area...
if u drive by the road by the side, u will be dazzled by its fantasia of lighting effects...
and there is a tagline on its ground " beijinger.... look up high"

quite nice....

behaving wiredly....i mean weirdly

2007-03-14T10:40:00.000+08:00

i had a dream last night flocks of birds surround ard my bed... i mean damn alot of birds..... pressuring on me...
i wana shout to scare them away but there is nothing coming out of my mouth...
in vain... its like a tv on but the volume is shut.
i thought of something... i clapped.... and i mean i clapped in my dream and i do clapped in reality.
"POK!" and it waken both me and leng...
i manage to explain the whole story to leng before back to sleep more...
the chances of rememebing it after you are awake is really slim...

luckily i din hit leng.... it will be bad...

HAHA!

interesting day out

2007-03-13T10:00:00.000+08:00

the industiral view is shot in front of our apartment... quite interesting... look at the far right, there is this sclupture of dummy painter painting clouds on the big tanks...

its 11th march that day... and leng told it is queue up day. this day people all in china are to queue up when they told train and buses... they 5 ounch of effort working towards upcoming old lam pick.

the other shop is actually a lock and lock shop... how amazing to open a shop jus to sell lock and lock.... apparently there are limited editions of this "tupperware" in orange sold here...

i love this beng

2007-03-08T17:16:00.001+08:00

80th months on the 8th

2007-03-08T09:20:00.000+08:00

this is the day when leng and i are 80th months old...
sometimes its amazing to think back that we have been that long...
she been thru many many pharses of my life...
from NS to my job, from oversea studies to oversea working...
thanks you leng.

by the way is 38 women day today... woman in the office is entitled half day off...
they shd have a men's day...
if so what day shd it be?
i reckon its gona be 6th of september....(69)
heehee

back in beijing

2007-03-07T10:31:00.000+08:00

was back in singapore for couple of days....
settling my visa and it was a great time catching up with both side of the family and friends too...
this trip is surreal... its more like an holiday in sg. coz we have to leave in 5days time.
its like looking at sg from a third person view... from a tourist. from an alien point of view.
even though its jus a month staying in beijing. we are so used to the low living standard...
wat we spend on the road in a day in sg can come up to wat we could have been spending in beijing for a week,
we missed snowing the second time round. apparently it was really snowing this time of the year in bj...
we are home grown sgporean... so to see snow is really really a big thing to us i guess...

its was a good time to reload all the stocks and stuffs we need...
milo.... the milo in bj is premixed with milk power and suger.
magmite, greentea, essential oil, etc etc...

i got myself a wick NV10 and a canon photo printer....

i hope i put it into good use and shoot some pictures...

monday old lady

2007-02-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i last write. i guess i old lady lost all my readers

its been a month exactly i am in beijing...

its been awhile...

din manage to say farewell to ed...

ed if u read this.. this is my farewell... take care and hope you find tee of your size in bangkok...

first wed of 2007

2007-01-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

i was packing my house and as much as i want to throw things that are no longer useful to me...
the sentimental side of me spring out.... old magazines, greeting cards... even the smallest little trace of things, all i want to keep... its takes brutal effort to dump them...
i make no sofy guys... or SNAG.... sensitive new age guy...
but somehow all these little things jus brings back fond mermories...
thats the way i remember my past.... a matchbox, a flyer from zouk, a bagful of toys

all of them got a time stamping to it....
so remember things thru writings.... some thru music...
i am a past collector.... i collect things to feel the past tense...

somehow i need to feel disengage this time...
to foresake these things for better things to come...

review resolution 2006 and new ones for 2007

2006-12-28T13:21:00.000+08:00

2006

1. jog more - no
2. loose weight - yes less 4kg
3. quit smoking by birthday - yes, never touch a stick still
4. less beer - yes but switch to wine and mixer
5. more veg - yes and no
6. get promoted - yes
7. get raise - yes
8. attend more services - yes and working on it
9. save 5k by the end of the year - yesh
10. do a 50-50 grind and ride the quarterpipe - nope

70percent of wat i set upon is met...
it was great to have goal..... that when i set my pace to work on it to greater heights

2007 resolution

1. get fit.... pick up a sport
2. drink less wine and mixer
3. attend service regularly
4. save another 10k by end of the year
5. travel more...
6. read more...
7. get a holiday in korea and japan...
8. make new venture other than full time work....
9. spend more time with leng and with families as much as i can
10. work smart and not jus work hard....

tuesday rainy

2006-12-19T09:20:00.000+08:00

this is a long lost verse that i rediscover today..... i remember i used to draw something like this using a .02 technical pen....

its been a rainy monday and tuesday....

mondays.....bluzeeesses

2006-12-18T19:46:00.000+08:00

i try to understand.....
the account servicing....
the traffic department
the creative team
the studio finishing artwork
managing client expectation...
its money making in the grooving....
its not about how well you do your job alone at times.... its sometimes jus team work
its hard to comprehend.... its an invaluable experience... its all the same...
same shit in every agency... but jus different is the smell
same is the workflow... but jus different is the people that you work with or against with....

its smell like shit....
it smell nothing like teen spirit

thursday morning

2006-12-14T09:37:00.000+08:00

morning ..... missing a cuppa of roasted coffee...
my tummy is not ready for any caffeine intake yet.
no oily food.... no drinks...

i called my mum last night...
i didnt start the conversation with how are you.....
i started with "hello? mum, i might be doing this and that..."
i din realise how estranged it was to speak to her like reporting...
kind of like FOR YOUR INFO attitude.
until leng told me that....
i guess i can be blunt at times...
even leng was the one that initiated me to call my mum to catch up with her.

the call was good.... toking about things back at home and i can feel her again... somewhat like a fren... like a kin...

its been quite a emotional and tangentible period me and leng is going through...
not knowing wats the future holds...
we embrace each other and walk on lor

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

copy terrorist

2006-12-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

its been a rough weekend till now
me and leng got food poisoning.
it was a painful time when we are almost immobilize to do anything

- a painful burned pocket of medical bill of 300bux
- a good few kg we lost in the process...
- a reintroduction to simple food like marmite with porriadge and Glucolin glucose
- a time when we both spend time talking about time we lost time.

a period I realised somehow relationship can be very take for granted and
forgot that we need time to manage it like everything else we care in our life...

its a scary world out there... its takes two to clap and thats wat a marriage is about...

i got locked out....

2006-12-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

a robber look alike locksmith...

somehow the lock of the main door refused to let us in last friday night....

at first i was wondering if i got the wrong unit but correct leh...

we tried to insert the key but all is in vain

after much effort from neighbour greg... we give up.... spotted a locksmith advertisement sticker and called him in for help

this is the real taste of guerilla marketing tactics at work...

a sticker of 2cm by 4cm came and speak to the consumer like an oasis in the desert

usual rate 40bux
after midnight rate 60x
locksmith stays around the corner 50x
lock replacement 30bux

total a hole in the pocket... 80bux
and also a hole on the door.... the locksmith mis que and jammed a small lobang on the side of the keyhole...

so much so for a friday night

becoming vader

2006-12-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

CHeeze!

MeiMei went under the knife of her grandma..... again.... this time the cut is rather queer....

reminds me of darth vader....

thats wat if darth vadar is a female? mei mei will be the little anakin meimei skywalker

passing by.... take none for granted

2006-11-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

seemly, not much of happening...
a weird wedding of lengs coursin
a frustrating suites that keep pressing my button
a sickly leng that required TLC...
a temptation to get a macbook but cant find a good enuff excuse to do so
an job offer and another potential recommendation...
a time when wedding dinners too comment
a few new mothers and fathers...
a few more that caught some sickness in between
a new boss in days to come
a few new notes to play
a few new bills to pay

wata shi wa nazzzzz kuku baka

2006-11-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

okie the lyrics from dreamz fm came along way
i heard it first on channel 5 chemistry sitcom
den the next time was jonathan leong singing it on his SI final
it misleading and it sounds like i m having a rough pitch with leng
nope
its most like leng and i going thru a crossroad
i got an offer to work in beijing.,,,,, hence shd i stay or shd i go?
a chance of lifetime to jus go the same old me.... no tomoro and jus nike.... just do it
or shd i be safe and fall in line with the rest and just rest in my comfort zone and be merry?
i am going revert them soon
the ups is i think i m too comfortable in my position now
i wana edge out and grow abit more
the time i grew is when
i jus hack care and
1 go melbourne and studie and know a great deals and frens.( daryl u are one of them) and of cse i lose some fren in the process
2 i quited my laast job... be it by force... by i resigned and step up to be in a shitty agency life
3 taking the plunge to get married and the hdb u live in i truely can call it my whole... u shd see the shit load of stuffs we have in our mcnair flat and u will know all in all is all we owned... the fridge to the rag.... its a strange and amazing feeling u will get when u got ur very own pad one day
4 the next step i will take this time.....

maybe jus need to be more asure of myself.... maybe i m jus scare of treadin in unfamilar grounds again,,,,

weekily weakling waddling wednesday

2006-11-01T18:19:00.000+08:00

so much so for mid day...
its a day somehow i oways ponder and reflect over wat has been happening alot the last few days
a time to revisit the things i had done or i had not...
like a frank muller watch.... its crazy hours....
the rush and fuss and wait to rush to wait...

By Dreamz FM

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

this is my dad

2006-10-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

a strong character
his father is a carpenter from shanghai
he is a carpenter too
he measures things in mm
he hammer ten nails in equal distance
he got his artistic mood swing
he flared up in small little matters
i think i m like that at times
he makes most of the furniture at home
a handyman
a man that need his breakfast to start his day
newspaper to end his night
he got a contented heart
he see things in day by day
not an over ambitious guy
but stil he brought up my sis and me till this time
i wana tell him i love him
i m so glad i spoke to him yesterday
the estranged relationship seems over
he is real
he is my father
he is my father...

one week in beijing...

2006-10-18T11:09:00.000+08:00

tian an men

its the 5th day in beijing
all i can say its a love and hate relationship here....
things that i embrace and things i detest here...
an everchanging city moulding itself towards ol lam pic

its never as quiet and rustic as i thought...
the wall is swamped with tourists and opportunitists taking the advantage of it...
drinkstall, stall that take photos for a small fee...
certificate that you climbed the great wall
not missing out tees and caps...

u see the crowd on the right and u will know wat i mean.

interesting cafe.... cater for the lao wai i think
they have a good library of books here for the expat...
nice ambience and somehow it reminds me of melbourne...
the food the cosyness

or maybe its jus the overwhelming of ang moh innit.

4 most days to go...

there is much to do but so little time...

amaze singh

2006-10-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

mid week again liaos

2006-10-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

10am meeting in tuas is never fun...
its half an hour to get there even on a cab ride...
how do people work in tuas get there every morning
must be a depressing and daunting task to complish

another half hour cab ride back to office thereafter...

after this "eventful" morning, i am drained....

so i went for a haircut.... thereuputic.... cant spell

one that woken me up and cheer up my day.... recharged

amazing wat a haicut can do...

make u refresh
5 years younger
nerder
cleaner
skinnyer

thats me

2006-10-02T21:14:00.000+08:00

4 years back
blond
on route to great ocean road
tattoo half done.
skinny
merry
ahbengs

life before death or after death on the center stage?

2006-10-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

i wonder to grieve over the last period before u leave this world is more important to most people...
what we shd dwell on its the afterlife.... will u see sea of fire? or creams like clouds?

am quite on the lower mode.... the work i see i love is abit diluted... with the business and the figures we have to
make and swallow...
its reality.... no money, no talk lor

the tender part of me wana be at peace with myself... the thing is i jus have to be hush to people that give no respect to themself at times... times when i got sandwiched... its jus a matter of making sense and justify what things is done that way...

end of the day, its jus work.. do i have to be so affected?

"affected" the word we use to describe our feelings when we are upset with each other a upon the dating time....

i am "affected" lah..... spell it all....
funny but interesting

i need to count my blessings..... today

a happy life
a nice lunch
another non smoking day
another day peace with myself
a beauty wife
a nice cosy home
sleep at night
a beauty day
a promising future
....

i love my life...
i shd be happy,,,

over and out

winter

2006-09-28T19:54:00.001+08:00

its not winter...
i m feeling under the weather.... a different kind of weather.... gloomy weather... i feel depressed...
all becos of work i guess...

times i heard people say that people born in winter are introvert and those in summer extrovert...
the weather changes and the mood swings too...

its been ayear since i last felt so... helpless.... depressed... and stare blank blank without knowing wat to do...
but the diff this time is i snapped out of it faster... i grabbed solutions...

stupid collegues...
result in my restlessness..
good thing is that is not all that bad....

some colleagues are still real and good to have....

i went to work

2006-09-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morning... having the rare pleasure to see leng still lazing on bed
i know the struggle... the pain .... the unwillingness to get up in the morning to do up ypurself before u get to work
i dont understand... in my world,,,
i am still full of zealouys after going to be two years in my company... blessed i am... able to switch between accounts and having my best fren, brother, partner in crime at work...

the days i think i m tired i am actually not working... i is energised when i m in motion... ( i typed the following without looking at the keyboard.... amazing huh!) how brain recognise things without looking at things..
over and out...\\tish

will those that still happened to read this blog please stand up pullesss stand up

2006-09-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

hey ho! those reading this blog please let a short comments..... at least i know there are still soul reading this blog.

i have been lazy....... more like i have been in a state of mental constipation....
nothing really excite me to really blog anything...

till now.,,
a realisation that i realise....(wat the?)

okie okie....
there was a time, when people say singapore wont make it,,,,,,, but we did,,,,,,,

opsss

not that either

serioud tone now

there was a time when the people around me started to get there first job.... first independent.... first self assured spending power,,,,,

it was fresh...... interesting

then it become a time when everyone tying the knot..... and have a home of their own....

recently,,,, i get news of people i know become dad and mum...

even i m a overdued uncle to be,,,, (my sis is preggy)

so much so,,,,, i get to see kiddos growing up....

i wonder wat will be next

i resent when i think that when the days come will all my frens will be not on this earth,,,,
when the day my love ones and all the people around me expired.....
and all i do in my old age is to attend wake....

somehow i wished i die later than leng... not that i wish her to die first....

but i dont wan her to face the saddness seeing me in the coffin when she drags the days onwards .... living another day,,,,

live for the day i say...... be happy for now wat u have

its 230am in the morning....

2006-08-26T02:17:00.000+08:00

nocturnal...? never
i is still in office on the friday.sat morning...
taking a break and put some thoughts down... uncinding at the same time....
i somehow felt that writing is quite therapuetic.... (naybeys cannot spell again)
somehow my thoughts are emptied and refreshed after writing...

leng and i took a trip to shenzhen and hk and u can see we had quite abit of fun,,,

good food, good shopping and good time together...
but leng get her knee injured.... inflamation....

this weekend is burned.....
some how no one wans to own this pitch .... all seems like headless chicken.... i took up the challenge to do more...
but will it end up that i jus make my boss look good?
hack it lah... like swoosh.... i jus do it lor...

oh another thing

i is fail my IPPT.... i tried my best.... i did not stop running.. somehow i is not the same anymore...
i remember a year ago i am still smoking and i still managed to pass...
somehow now... with a little beer belly... the run gets abit more daunting...

i is okie.... take again lor... no is the big is the deal mah

fridays

2006-08-11T11:59:00.000+08:00

somehow i dont write as religiously anymore...
work caught up and i was quite busy... too much actually.. i got hanz beensssss last night again,
saw cheebeng(ming) on tv yesternight...
when will i be on tv like him too?

i also wan the fame and the name
not just being same and lame...

in search of world best? why not jus treasure wat i have for now?
i was chatting with leng.... wat will we really ask for if we are single?
a branded bag?
a holiday?
a drinking spree?

learnt two new games recently.... gin rummy and sudoku...

got a colleague that is oways telling me things that is like dated...

"do you know that they are......"

which i already heard it like two weeks ago...

his is like a song
from def leopard

its called "two step behind"

monday...

2006-08-07T21:00:00.000+08:00

a new week ahead spawned a multiple tasks....
all in all still juggling it quite well...

a brief conversation with leng and its like looping programming

L: i got monday blues...
G: den quit your job...
L" i will be so boerd and nothing to do...
G den stay working...

go back to the first liner and you will get the looping effects

she do realise it and she will even laff to herself and somehow reluctant to say she got a downer from work anymore...
sort of she expected how i will recipocrate...
me subscribing to live and let live... live like no tomolo... but somehow when reality sets back.,,,
are we able to do just wat we wana do... instead of making everyone happy?

tots for the day... when a guy likes a woman... sometimes is not his little brother getting rubbed but its his ego getting one and a boaster to his and a "boner" in his ego.... big big head...

thats wat my boss did that day at his farewell... he trying not to steal the limelight, he was giving a speech rubbing everyone ego... how so and so is good at this and how so and so is that....

In the end, we all got big headed...
i guess thats whats the strength of a GM MD or CEO... to give good report like joshua and caleb even though the future is bleak...

days when there is no sms... and not InTheNeck

2006-07-31T10:19:00.000+08:00

the days when there is no internet and sms.... the form of communication is really personal and verbal... a phone call away at least or a date.... and a date will be really a big event when people cherish to catch up...

now date and phonecall seems diluted... flooded by sms and interneck... we are not subjected to confrontation or shameful proposal.... rejection is not so right in your face...

like an email that speaks about breaking up a relation...
or one that tells u that u are fired...

or a sms that write "will you marry me?

its seems abit neo and refreshing at first... a different medium to communicate... but after a full cycle of it... its seems abit senseless...

but we all gain from these media.... we translate faster and more often...

a consolation is an email away... or a flirting one...

or a marriage break up can be caused by one in that sense too...

reservist

2006-07-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

i went back for a day of reservist...
not bad... in my new gorn tex boots... cannot spell
and slightly tight no.4
packed lunch was graced with four sticks of satay...
alot of catch up with old mates but i was abit out of place since i dont smoke anymore...
it was good...we make a few "hungry ghost" jokes...

like why will the CO wana do a COC parade on the first day of the lunar ghost month?
and how we are suppose to go collect a red pail from the store to pick all the left over food from the buffet and stick it with a flag of our unit...

it was silly... it was fun... i was paid make up pay... part of my income tax contribution...

ugly people on bus

2006-07-20T09:46:00.000+08:00

this girl aborad the same bus after a few stops i got up... side beside across the aisle... almost plain jane that dont caught my eye for a second look. not a head turner definitely...
Suddenly, ( like school days composition like that must use "suddenly" in the start of next paragraph.... she took out a nail clipper and start snapping away... making click click sound...
man.... i was both shock to see this activity and oso quite agitated by the click sound....

she procede to sweep her dead cuticles on the floorboard of the bus..... GROSS lah.....

watever, its trival but its enuff sighting for me to blog it down...

i alight the bus.... the floorboard was bombarded with her artpiece.... not the best thing to experience first thing in the morning...

i saw this jap girl on flickr... misa chan and tot this might be how mei mei look like when she grew up

我愛黑澀會

2006-07-19T12:11:00.000+08:00

2/3 of things to do in 2006 achieved

2006-07-18T10:28:00.000+08:00

1. jog more - nope
2. loose weight - maintain
3. quit smoking by birthday - 4months
4. less beer - less beer but switch to wine
5. more veg - okie only
6. get promoted - done
7. get raise - done
8. attend more services - this sunday?
9. save 5k by the end of the year - nope
10. do a 50-50 grind and ride the quarterpipe - nope

leng was abit mad about my drinking habit...
still i m set to cut down even thats wat i say upteen times...

dont be mad leng... i is promise

i am this but i m that

2006-07-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

i am 29 this year but i feel like i m 20
i am married but i still feel i m still single
i own a HDB property but i still feel like i own nothing
i am a senior designer but i am a clown at work
i am quite busy during office office even though i mark ard most of the time...
i sleep quite alot every day but i am still oways tired
i am skinny but i have a beer belly growing
i try to write witty copy but my english is suck

i am wat i am...

i is guan

i is the only ahguan you know

which is wat is who is wat?

2006-07-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

which one more pathetic?
a guy that have a extra-marital affair? or one that masterbate secretly when she is not looking?
a guy that his heart is not with his wife but still continue to support the household?
or the wife that decided to stay put with her husband jus for the sake of her children?
a guy that earns great pay but long hours is the poison/?
or one that earn barely enuff to feed his own but ample and quality time with his love ones?
a drowning pigeon? or a roasted chicken?
a superman that cant fly? or a fleeing superman flying away from his own fear?

its all half empty or half filled theroy...

happy wednesday... happy mambo day...

where to get a float like this?

2006-07-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

3 little bear korean song in Fullhouse performed by MYRS 米兒絲

2006-07-07T10:53:00.000+08:00

if the world is a cup...

2006-07-05T03:09:00.000+08:00

if the world is a cup....
what will it be filled with?
a vessel that contains mermories of war?
or vivid moments of great inventions?

if the world is a cup....
who will be drinking from it?
a weapon of mass destruction tapping it?
or another walk to the moon?

if the world is a cup....
what will it be its temperature?
a cold ice frozed melancholy?
or a world cup fever of germany and italy?

as if man.... i m like a poet.... as if i m oso like bob marley
love is da word....

friday is the night

2006-06-30T19:04:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of my partner kim (copywriter)...
we been thru 18months of ups and downs....
it was kinda weird for her to leave me hanging here.,, who will be my next?
i wonder...
i m going to miss her shit....

"oh man! i was so drunk last weekend!" she said on most monday...

maybe its all good...

she is going holland in two months time to join her hubbies....

wednesday late nightsssssss....

2006-06-29T16:52:00.000+08:00

late night..... i was not stressed but the urge to fag come in to me so strong last night...

after 3 and a half months... i m still clean

am still clean now...

its wednesday again

2006-06-28T10:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday there was a show called "project Y" Y计划 that featured my ex company asylum...
leng then said " if u are still working there, you will be on tv!!!"

its brings back fond mermories working there.... the goods and the bads...
somehow when i take a step back and look at it now... i have grown up quite abit from then till now...
in every sense... in creativity, in EQ, in managing stress and all...

somehow like i told chris and feel the same way still....
"Asylum is will be better for me if i have been thru alot of years of experience in the industry, not when i jus started my journey"

Hanzzz Beinzzz

2006-06-27T09:00:00.000+08:00

Hanzzz Beinzzz - the term we used on children who plays too much in the day time and during their sleep they will have dreams thinking they are still playing...

i have Hanzzz Beinzzz too.... that is wat happened when i worked on sunday and late on monday... running several projects back to back... so when i was resting on bed yesternight... physically i was resting, mentally the working in the day are still racing in my head... not that i m stressed, i have learnt to detached my work after i leave the office... i hang it on the tree down my block and not bring tots of work home as much as possible... collect it back from the tree when i go to work in the morning....

so i dont feel i had much rest last night... i feel abit wear off... my mind was in formula one race last night...

sunday back in office

2006-06-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

its not a ghosttown as expected..
jaryapa and most of the studio artist are in... rushing some brand gude book...
there were few others...
i wonder if its not having a slight passion in the things we do or the mere satifaction when a job is done...
we wont be able to survive the crude reality that have to set in that we at times have to work long late nights and weekends...
its not so much of the tiredness... but when i sleep night and tight.. i know its because i m in peace with myselfa and the things i do brings satifactions and joy to me.... painful but shiok... its like addictive pain.... its like tattoo...

sat day trip to JB
200bux
one day
two meals
great shoppings---

one berms
one wallet chain
one skirt
one shorts
3 nail art pens
two pairs of earstuds
4 airwaves gums
a pair of specs
1 year supply of contact lenses
handiplas
a pair of slippers
a belt
10 egg tarts

its all fun... its all good...

wat do you want?

2006-06-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

wat makes you happy?

man:
a pair of nice legs to ogle...
a pair of blossom to ogle...
a nice cold beer
a FHM
likely some silly reality show
some not so legal website
a nap
a car
a bike
a supper
a princess to love him even though he is putting on pounds
a watch
a holiday
jus doing nothing

woman:
a pair of nice legs
a pair of blossom
life time supply of nail polish and facial treatment FOC
a working hubbi that will still return home to help house chores
a branded bag
trashy magazine
a korean soap opera
a spa
afternoon tea
top of all.... to buy wat she oways wanted to get in a SALES....

its a good day to give birth

2006-06-20T10:17:00.000+08:00

elvia (leng's niece) is born on 20th april 2002 (20.04.2002)
elina (leng's niece) is born on 20th februnary 2004 (20.02.2004)

if anyone give birth today it will be a nice date too.... 20 june 2006 (20.06.2006)

friday oledi.. this week is fast but not so furious

2006-06-16T10:54:00.000+08:00

fast is the pace... is it the anticipation of world cup matches to watch every night?
or its jus that i m not so busy... i blame it on the suits....
the account servcing team like took forever to write a brief...
squeeze creative time in between...

i is enkolish weak...
not that i choose to be writing like this
i believe my flare of my visual artistic sense is offset by a dosage of not so perfect command of language
as a communicator... i is think its too oso important to gain some ground on the speech and writing...
good work speaks for itself.... but then again some work need to be sold... a pitch
the narration of the idea and the logical application will help in making sense to the work we produce
why this color? yeah subjective but there is an oways a logical explanation of the color we use...
why this font?
why this treatment?
why this finishing?

to such way.... it is oso applicable to the way of life...
to choose to have a car and forgo a big holiday every year?
to move out of comfort zone and strife for bigger challenge?

i must say living your life is a form of art too...
we got the freedom to choose wat to do wat to eat...
who to be with...
leng and i are totally opposite... which is what i think it attracts...

leng is a sofeware engineer
thinks in logic
dont like to work much
make sure things are in place
doesnt sleep much

guan is a designer
thinks in emotive
enjoy his work
messy up things
love to sleep

i use to think marriage is the graveyard of my creative career...
i must say i m so wrong...
life goes on...
in fact its better than last time...

longest word in the world

2006-06-15T09:37:00.000+08:00

leng masterpiece.. she drew it on my mac when i was out with jaryapa skating...

Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis,
a 45-letter word supposed to refer to a lung disease,
but research has discovered that this word was originally intended as a hoax.

金曲獎 MC Hotdog+張震嶽

2006-06-13T18:34:00.000+08:00

how do you read me?

2006-06-13T10:32:00.000+08:00

i got a enlightenment today...
how does an autistic reads the world??
its like everyone he speaks to is thru an msn filter or thru email as a medium
no expression or anyway they can read it from ur face... monotone...
everyone is jus an object... no parent no frens no relation...
they have no concept of wat is relative to them...
if u point a toy gun at one, they might think its for real...

so do we read one mind like a autistic if we choose to communicate with one another on msn or email...
unless u dont knoe that person..
we paint a picture of how we will c emoticons and how the recipents reacts to our message...
whether its a delayed reply or a pause in between...

so its less likely we feel foreign to it...

all this are sort of emotion implications we are conditioned to understand....
so
a "hello" "hello!" and "hello?"
to us it all sounds different...
but to a autistic... it jus another hello... no diff

again got nothing to write so pull lyrics...

2006-06-08T15:32:00.000+08:00

我的阿妹妹快來和我跳阿哥哥 Go 我知道你看到是我妳不會說No
我不是油頭葉教授我的homiez都叫我熱狗 4 sure
女孩就是喜歡妳台台等等去家裡home pa要不要來
只怕你掛的太快明天要去廟裡收驚拜拜 How High ?! We can kiss the sky!
人生海海我們不會只是stand one night 『one night in 墾丁..我留下許多情..』
你是我的可口可樂幫我解渴看我穿著就知道我玩饒舌
不要說我壞話因為我有順風耳如果是你肚子大我帶你去看順風婦產科

我愛台妹台妹愛我對我來說林志玲算什麼?!
我愛台妹台妹愛我對我來說侯佩岑算什麼…..

我不愛中國小姐我愛台妹萬萬歲妳的檳榔2粒要100 好貴有沒有含睡
如果能夠和妳共枕眠更多更多的奶粉錢我願意為妳貢獻我不是愛現
請妳噴上一點點銷魂的香水換上妳最性感的高跟鞋人群之中妳最亮眼
台妹來了我是否和妳一拍即合跟我去很多的不良場合
大家看到我都對我喊yes sir 因為我是公認最屌的rapper
台妹們麻煩和我拍拖我不是凱子可是付錢我也不會囉唆
純情是什麼我不懂我的想法很邪惡張震嶽他懂

我愛台妹台妹愛我對我來說林志玲算什麼?!
我愛台妹台妹愛我對我來說侯佩岑算什麼…..

為了妳我可能要投資一家檳榔攤為了妳家裡可能要有鋼管
為了妳我要常常下去台南為了妳　流氓會來找我麻煩
對於帶著一點風塵味的女生　我的腎上腺素毫不考慮亮起紅燈
畢竟妳不是天使　我也不是聖人時尚的野獸那就請你滾我受夠
你是馬戲團訓練有素的animal 所有男模女模你在屌什麼
我就不信你現在還有處女膜都是凱子搓
我喜歡台妹說話的口音有時候挾帶幾句口白三字經
愛神的箭你要射向哪裡這裡張震嶽 free9熱狗這裡等你

我愛台妹台妹愛我對我來說林志玲算什麼?!
我愛台妹台妹愛我對我來說侯佩岑算什麼…..

把手放在空中甩叫你什麼都不用管
我讓你感受這個節奏身體跟著擺動
這是free9 張震嶽熱狗要你跟著我們怒吼
一切都是假象不是你們想像
我愛台妹我愛台北就像這樣

turned off

2006-06-08T09:23:00.000+08:00

i was on way back in bus 133 yesternight...
not so packed...
a girl was sitting on the 2nd last row....
the only empty seat is the one beside her...
she had her bags on it...
i walked near her.. hinting sliently hovering around her....
i.e " i want to sit down"
she pretend and she was oblivious to the surrounding...

its an ugly sight somehow...
a not so bad looking girl with an ugly attitude...
i was turned off...

i wana tell her off but never...
an uncle came along and did the same trick that i did... hovering ard her and hinting her....
slience was broken.... "excuse" the uncle said...
the girl very very unwilling... giving up her placement of her bags...

to add up the turn off crank...

she was eating a delmote banana explictly when she was on the bus ride....

beauty is ugly... think the cleaner aunty in my office got more manners than this girl that i encountered...

midweek rigid midget

2006-06-07T10:02:00.000+08:00

there is alot of things to be finished today...

i will write much later...

its wednesday mid week again.... alot of mixed up feeling again....

monday....

2006-06-05T09:59:00.000+08:00

i is in the same ordeal... i once read a blog that wrote about blogger that got nothing to write
so they start to "write" lyrics to jus make their entry complete...
its like me now... i start my day with a blog and the rest is in clockwork fashion...
so here it goes...

作词：陈升/刘佳慧作曲：陈升女声：刘佳慧

女：不想再问你你到底在何方
　　不想再思量你能否归来呖
　　带着你的心想着你的脸
　　想捧在胸口能不放就不放

男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
　　不管你爱与不爱都是历史的尘埃
　　ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
　　不敢在午夜问路怕走到了百花深处

女：人说百花地深处住着老情人
　　缝着绣花鞋面容安详的老人
　　依旧等待着那出征的归人

男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你可别喝太多酒
　　不管你爱与不爱都是历史的尘埃
　　ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
　　把酒对月高歌的男儿是北方的狼族

女：人说北方的狼族会在寒风起
　　站在城门外穿着腐蚀的铁衣
　　呼唤城门外眼中含着泪

男：呜......我已等待了几千年为何城门还不开
女：呜......我已等待了几千年为何良人不回来
合：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
男：不敢在午夜问路怕触动了伤心的魂
合：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
男：不敢在午夜问路怕走到了地安门
女：人说地安门里面有位老妇人犹在痴痴等
　　面容安详的老人依旧等待那出征的归人

男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你可别喝太多酒
　　走在地安门外没有人不动真情
合：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你会流下许多情
　　不要在午夜问路怕触动了伤心的魂（人）
男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING
女：不想再问你你到底在何方
　　不想再思量你能否归来呖
　　带着你的心想着你的脸
　　想捧在胸口能不放就不放
男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你会流下许多情
　　不要在午夜问路怕触动了伤心的魂

to pull or to push

2006-06-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

this is meimei

friday night...

i heard from master master on the journey west that mei mei is missing me ( leng niece i dope) i was amazed and delighted... even its jus asking about me " why is ancukle?"
i wana run to her but i cant,,,,, still in the mist of work...
i think i like kids,,, be it boy or girl,,,,

damn

uncle guan is really in the pipeline

friday i m in shirt.

2006-06-02T10:06:00.000+08:00

cosmo second last day....

the journey to the west( to in law place) shd take place tonight.... drink and farewell party monsters were in the way... master tang(tng lengnah) is going to the western haven alone... her piggy disciple(me) is not going there to protect her... but she will be in good hands...

there is no cure for stupidity.... those damn suits... the more senior the worse they are...

jarpaya is going to move in to a new apartment.... so wats on his state of mind in most things he see is in co-related to wat can he do to his new bacherlor pad.... he managed to outwit the lady salesgirl to give her a good price for a "gun and roses" vase

"if i m a girl thats it!" he said

"i will be the village bicycle!"

heehee

pragmatic tangible tangent...

2006-06-01T10:10:00.000+08:00

there is a shift of paradigm...
i used to buy maharishi pants(the most expensive i bought is 370bux)
craze over kicker like adidas limited edition which i proudly own and worn it on my big day...
toys that i jus buy but never open it up... still in mint condition these toys...
even the toys have a hobbies of their own now..... collecting dust lor...
i remembered how i was steadfast and str8 on wanting to get a bose system for my house no matter wat...
its jus a must in "to do list" to make the whole completion to the furnishing of a new home...
whats more its the great singapore sales now....
i digress...
i fixed up my computer speaker... altec lansing... which have a rocking woofer... too deep actually...
it was all good...

from a 2k system to a 80bux used up computer speakers.... i think i m easily contented...
i tested it with my Dj shadow DVD on live and in tune..... not bad not bad at all...

hello ah peh guan
goodbye ah siah guan

ginger tea is the culprit

2006-05-31T10:03:00.000+08:00

"ginger tea go away, little lengnah wan to play"

she was awake due to the ginger tea she had during my late dinner... result?
she cant sleep, i cant sleep either... i have to play with her...

i think its cleartear ROM today. Congrats! welcome to the club.

super munchkin!!!

2006-05-30T10:53:00.000+08:00

roleplaying on table not on bed

http://www.sjgames.com/munchkin/game/

weekend fren of neighbour came over to our place to look see as they jus got their flats and is in search of how to do up their lovenest...
went over to greg's place and was introduced to a role-playing card game.... actually four pairs of couple and a single were playing it.... the rules and explanation was a bit dauning at first. but once we got the tricks it was quite farni and fun...
i went thru the net hoping to find a online version so i can play it myself... no luck... but discovered that they have add on edition spoofs from stars wars to mission impossible.... kung fu and the need of speed version... this things are great but cant be played alone.... so it need a pool of people that are really into it to build up...

for once.... i will like to acknowledge those that have been reading quietly my blog... as far as i know.... i din write these for no one to read.

lyrrad nahc
hayley mummy
ed
cleartear
diva
pixelmunky
jun
leng
greg?
...anyone i missed?

i love u

2006-05-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4queLR6ruY

Amazing phase

2006-05-26T11:49:00.000+08:00

i went to break up with my long time companion....
my pacific.net.sg account...
sinces the heydays of internet. it was with me thru poly days, national service, my courtship, overseas studies and working life... it was hard to say goodbye.... sentimental reasons and fearing of long lost frens will contact me thru that source.
it wasnt betrayal... but i get to know new girlfrens from jaryapa. he introduced me to gmail.com.
nice girl with a big voluptous blossom(2ggig big) and a new singtel boardband that is like lace she is wearing that spice things up.
and den the every underused pacific.net.sg and realised that i dont get any old frens to contact me in anyway.she was so slow to make me cum(still in dial up mode) den i get the point that if the email contact u dont contact for the past 6months... likely u are not going to contact hem anyway or which ever way. if our path cross again on the street. den let that be fate that we shd be in contact again...

the breakup was a fast one... i went to cancel it... she was oblivious... she din ask me to stay.... instead she asked me to pay up the 27.60bux i owe her for the past 4 months...
sign the divorce paper and ask me wats the reason of this breakup

i left the pacnet shop... feeling as numb as she is...

i confess.... i m tired of her long time but jus din know how to get rid of her...

goodbye ahguan@pacific.net.sg
hello ahguan77@gmail.com